Guys what the fuck am I doing with my life.

I'm 18, never so much as felt the touch of a woman, I'm addicted to cigarettes, nearly all of my time is consumed with work, nothing seems worth it anymore.

Now I'm stuck here at 11pm eating ice cream that I bought from a late night store run tonight watching old metalcore videos.

I keep using pot to try and relax even though I don't want to, and every time I smoke I just pissed off and disappointed in myself afterwards.

I don't know what to do anymore, I've dropped out of contact with the friends I made in school, I feel like I don't have anyone I can turn to, I'm trying to make enough money so I can move out of my parents house but I don't get paid enough to be able to make monthly payments.
I feel like a fag whenever I get like this, and I feel like a fag whenever I use things to cope with this. I know I'm too young to feel like this but I truly don't know what to do anymore.