Guys what the fuck am I doing with my life.

I'm 18, never so much as felt the touch of a woman, I'm addicted to cigarettes, nearly all of my time is consumed with work, nothing seems worth it anymore.

Now I'm stuck here at 11pm eating ice cream that I bought from a late night store run tonight watching old metalcore videos.

I keep using pot to try and relax even though I don't want to, and every time I smoke I just pissed off and disappointed in myself afterwards.

I don't know what to do anymore, I've dropped out of contact with the friends I made in school, I feel like I don't have anyone I can turn to, I'm trying to make enough money so I can move out of my parents house but I don't get paid enough to be able to make monthly payments.
I feel like a fag whenever I get like this, and I feel like a fag whenever I use things to cope with this. I know I'm too young to feel like this but I truly don't know what to do anymore.

I'm 18 with a chadlite face but I completely wasted it during my whole teenage years and never had any friends or girlfriend and now I won't be able to lose my virginity for awhile since I'm going homeless and probably can't have sex while I'm out living in a tent. I have 1 month before I'm kicked out so I might be able to get a girl off Tinder to have sex while at my parents house but I have no car to pick them up and am embarrassed to take selfies like that anyway.

>>33411978 (OP)
Quit being a pussy and go back to work

>>33412005
That's my plan, but what is the end goal here?
My entire life I was "preparing" to be an adult, and so far it's been ass. Wake up, go to work, come home, go to work again, come home again, go to bed, do it all over again.
Is this all it is now? What am I working towards? Nothing brings me fulfillment anymore. It all just agitates me until I finally just stop doing whatever I was doing and stare at the ceiling for a little while.

>>33411991
If your face is 7/10 and you are not shirt, there will be a woman willing to let you stay at her house and save you from homelessness.

>>33411978 (OP)
Quit cigarretes, quit pot, quit your job. Run away from homes, hitchgike across the country, and try to survive homeless. It's an adventure that will spark your light of confidence

>>33412304
U talking from experience? There is no way u r serious

>>33412603
Not yet, but i will intenrionally become homeless in about two months. I want complete freedom.

>>33411978 (OP)
>18, never so much as felt the touch of a woman
It's over. LOL

>>33411978 (OP)
Anon there are people out there who don't "start" their life until their 30s. Realistically you have a good 3+ decades left to enjoy your youth before your age becomes a serious problem.
Losing contact with your highschool friends is EXTREMELY common even among normies. I can count the people I know who are still connected to their high school friends on one hand, and it's always one person. It's just a fact of life, you hung out with them because you spent a lot of time in the same place, now that you don't anymore you've drifted apart. You will have to find new friends. That's just being an adult.
Living with your parents in your late teens and 20s is very common too. Housing is simply too expensive for the average person nowadays.
Basically you are still young as fuck and have nothing to worry about. The only thing you can do is not beat yourself up over common life experiences and focus on opening up as a person. It's not a process that happens overnight, take it as slow as you want, but try to make the effort to socialize. Even if it's just a small talk with one person. You can build on it.
I would try to cut down on cigarettes and weed if you can though. Cigarettes in particular. There's plenty of other people like you who have an addiction that leads to self-loathing. You could join an addiction group and use that as an excuse to socialize. Think of it as an incentive.

>>33416049
Also OP do you have any uncles or older male cousins who are well-adjusted and nice to you? If so I would seek their advice. In all likelihood they will be very happy to help you out.