I recently took up writing and the more I try to find a topic that is not shallow to me the more grounded in reality my pre-existing conviction that all fiction is shallow and pointless becomes, it's like this transparent thing that became solid.

I know that this will be a point of attack for radical retards but I will share anyway that I have a distaste/shame for reading or writings stuff that aims to invoke some sort of emotion through means other than compassion / empathy / respect, anything that tries to equate the emotion that the subject character feels to that the reader feels.
And like, while I could just write this sort of stuff I don't want to write the things that I like to read, it feels one-dimensional in a way, also writing ironic shit feels extremely shallow.

Is there any way for me to recover? Or should I just move on to other things like writing a manifesto?