it would be so nice to not have a rapestick between my legs

i have been questioning my gender identity for a long time now, i am not bothered by my body because is quite femenine and i am very fond of my male genitals and not planning on doing SRS any day. with this said, i abhror my male neanderthal sperg face, not that i am specially ugly, i just feel like it doesn't belong to me. i also feel way more comfortable fem presenting like in dresses and whatnot but using male pronouns. i think maybe i am a bit on the spectrum but idk. i am not a porn addict or anything for the case. what do you guys think? i think i may be repping because i know i am a failed case

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Thats awful anon, I'm so sorry :(. I don't know how well you can handle repressing permanently, but I do know that locking away a piece of your life like that will only make it slowly rot you from the inside out, and long term that would probably equally damage your relationship with her because of the additional stress and the risk of trooning out even later down the line. Have you told her you have GD at all yet? If not I think you should start with that instead of saying you are going to transition first, let her know how badly it hurts you and that you genuinely need this treatment, say you are considering it and ask what she thinks. I cant say anything for certain, obviously if she loves you she'd want to be with you no matter what but if she's straight she may be less attracted, its just how sexuality works, so it is a gamble, I am sorry.