>>76281600
Doubleshot of Rum in Coke, as is tradition.
I got a buddy going with me to the Gym again. I'm ahead of him, but I'm having a discomfort mid Thoracic spine, like a popping sensation, but without the pop itself. So I can do 50 pushups on my knuckles but I can't even get 10x3 on one pl8 due to nerves on this discomfort.

>>76284933
Sounds like you've already had a lot of thought over where you are and where you're going in life, anon. You seem like a smart person, with a clear sense of introspection. While you may be struggling now, you have a lot of great things to look forward too. WAGMI, you legend!

>>76284961
I think they *do* exist, but only with immense amount of speciality/tech prowess. I have a friend doing fully remote tech support and dispatch for internet infrastructure and he's paid pretty handsomely.

>>76285011
Sounds like you've made some huge huge strides in your life, and you're still suffering the loss of the time it took. It's okay to struggle, anon, and mourn the time lost. A thought I like to have is: I exist. Others like me must exist because obviously I'm here now. That means I can find hope even now, with people who've had a similar path in life.
Do you have any things you do to tank the increases of suicidal thoughts?