>>33365667
Recently came to the conclusion that accidentally or not, i abused my ex. i am emotionally unstable and subjected her to alot of that. i told her that if she broke up with me i'd try to kill myself, i told her that she was my only reason for living, and i meant it, but i now know these are not things you say to any other human being, let alone your girlfriend. i also on multiple occasions would ask if she wanted to have sex, and when she gave a firm no, i would just ask again an hour or two later. i think girls online would classify that as solid "creep behaviour."

i'm so worried that i wont amount to anything, and i'm so certain everyone sees me as either someone to pity or someone to avoid

i'm so worried that all my music and art will not connect with a single person besides myself , i wish i had an easier time connecting to others and i wish i could see myself as others see me