I want to meet a femboy on happenstance in a casual setting, get to know him and chat like bros, get him into all my favorite anime and vidya, then have him come over and have an out of nowhere make out session and explore each others bodies, then cuddle and do it all over again all night, then become engage and live a life of communal marital cooperation and sexual companionship

But this will never ever happen and it makes me depressed