>>39980747
I have to be the most brainwormed individual.
People are expressing romantic/sexual/other interest in me and I'm just like
>Oh they wouldn't actually like me I'm a hideous creature my appearance online is all fake
Even though it isn't like I'm not filtering shit, I'm intentionally trying to not angle fraud. And I can objectively look at these thoughts and recognise they're nonsense but I can't push myself to move past them.
I think I'll be better once my hair's fully grown out and I've started laser, got 12 days off coming up gonna actually bite the bullet and do a consult. My skin is so fucked up from shaving all the time :/.

I think I need to girlmode at a queerbar of some kind just as I am, hopefully prove to myself that I'm not hideous in the flesh.