>gf and i are both extreme submissives
>have arrangement with a guy who comes over basically just to boss us around play vidya and rail us
>gf is good obedient girl, almost always does what shes asked to
>gets princess treatment for it, has her head pat, gets compliments and praise, friend basically does anything for her
>im a brat
>humiliating to get praised like im a pet so fight it and fight back despite craving it
>degrading to be bossed around so disobey despite wanting to not have to think for myself
>embarrassing to admit that he's in charge of me so act like he's not despite just wanting to be put in my place
>get punished for disobeying
>get made fun of and teased for acting out
>dom knows exactly what i want but refuses to give it to me
>look over to gf
>doesnt have to pretend anything, happily gives up all autonomy and gets my dream treatment for it
>just want to be broken until im like her but its too embarrassing to ask for
>best part of him coming over is cuddling with him in bed after having done things because too tired to put on the act and just get to read my head on him without having to pretend
I don't have much more other than just being very jealous of her despite knowing I could solve all my issues by just rewiring my brain to not be so bratty