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so I hope that conveys why I'm feeling frustrated with myself, I'm not all that interested in the outcomes of my drawings right now, I want to learn new things but I'm not learning anything if I don't stick with what my intentions were at the beginning of the drawing (e.g setting out to do a small, 30 min contour sketch but instead doing a fully-realised 3 hr study 3x smaller than it should be)
I know it's better than not drawing at all I just want to nip this behaviour in the bud before it seriously starts to harm progress
>that is better than being a true permabeg / schizo who cannot for their life see and understand certain details or abstract visual concepts
that's me I'm the true permabeg / schizo
>you will improve in that regard just from practice and experience
I think that's true as well once I stop fixating on visual elements and start understanding broader shapes and structure, but that requires taking the first step to develop that unfamiliar skill, and I feel like I'm meant to be taking that first step right now yet I'm not :(
>every day before you begin drawing "for real", draw for 5 minutes on a page
>one big drawing of multiple small doodles
this sounds retarded but somehow my brain tells me "no, before you do that effectively, you need to understand THIS first" even though I don't fucking know what "THIS" is by name (my gut tells me it's gesture and perspective), any imaginative sketches I've tried are still mostly symbols with poor perspective and no depth
>in any case, keep up the good work anon!
thank you
>feeling expectations on me triggers my anxiety lel
yeah absolutely, the sketches you've posted here >>7615525 >>7615526 >>7615529 >>7615532 were what I was looking for anyway thanks, it didn't have to be that exact timed exercise

trying to draw larger in these images and get used to broader strokes, I have no idea how petals work