Finally got laid by seeing an escort yesterday, after 28 years of being a khv. Looks like I have to lay off the porn and deathgrip. Realized that having sex is no different from knowing how to drive a car. Started MMA and warhammer painting earlier this year, but slow progress is being made after an injury because I'm a retard. Had to bury my grandpa after doing some part-time caretaking for him after 8 years of that stuff, while also getting a degree and starting a job throughout that time period. I'm a little bit emotionally drained these days, especially after the funeral. Don't know why. Otherwise job is boring, no gf or have much close friends. Working with some physiotherapist to rebuild the body. I think my biggest problem now is that I don't feel or think I have much of a personality or have much of a 'life' beyond just working, fighting, lifting, painting minis. I already pay the bills at my current place since I need to help up the old folks. How did you anons find out what you wanted to be or do in life?