>>5913458
I think its the same with me and its not even something "big" and shocking, like physical abuse or specific traumatic event that one would expect to fuck up a kid, just subtle emotional neglect and lots of infighting in a retarded dysfunctional family, that otherwise looks like a "good" family to everyone outside. I have become that gay bystander kid that does nothing because I was shocked by what happened at home and I was scared of escalating it in any way, once I got old enough to reflect and understand what happened, I was already nearing my 30s and just felt too late.

I can tell that my sister got fucked up too, in different ways, but for the same reasons.