I'm still in love with my ex who cheated on me seven years ago. We were together for ten years, married but no kids. I don't know why, but I can't bring myself to hate her or to forget about her. I liked being with her, even if she is one of the worst examples of a human being that I have ever met. She was a liar, a coward, and a traitor, and I still want to be with her, only I know that what I really want is for her to be with someone who she can love the way she was supposed to love me. I'm almost ashamed to admit it because it makes me sound like a cuck, but it's the truth. I really do want what is best for her, but I want someone that loves me back. Even if she came back and wanted to start over, I would turn her away because I know that she can never love me, and that what we had was a one-time thing. I've had a few relationships since then, and they don't seem to work out. This year, I've decided I'm going to find someone. I really am, and I'm going to be open again, but I don't know if this is the right move. I'm afraid, but at the same time, I want to feel like I love someone again, and maybe experience what it's like for that person to love me back. In al these years, that hasn't happened. Nobody has shown me any affection that wasn't reliant on me being something they were after. Am I overthinking it? I don't want to end up in the same space again. I just want someone that loves me for me. I'm 34, and going back to school to pursue a second degree. I'm fit, not hideous, and I'm pretty smart, or so the Army says (142GT score for those of you who know). I know I can do this, but do I really have a chance? Or should I look somewhere outside of school?