>>279990528
My self loathing is based on an honest appraisal of my value as a person. I agree it is egotistical, thats just another part of why I loathe myself. Probably 90% of the time I spend "out of my own head", it all- every human endeavour- just amounts to fleeing and masking the futility of life, so why the fuck should I bother. >>279988928
What's funny about this is I don't have the courage to jump, nor the courage to live so...
>>279993095
I don't know if I can remember what living is. I think it might be something you do as a stupid person or something you do until you turn like 30 or something. After that there is only dying.