>>40326475
Sorry for your loss anon. Grieving and then having to go to a family reunion with people like that sounds rough… Hope you and your boyfriend will be able to power through it with as little time and energy spent as possible.
>how to actually force yourself to eat when you’re grieving
When I’m feeling low I try to keep my food and snacks as simple to reach for as I can. A plastic bag with peanuts in my backpack. Something right next to my bed. Bottles of soup that I can just pour into a cup and microwave. It doesnt always work but it feels easier to “trick” myself into eating if it isn’t a full-sized meal and I don’t have to do anything to prepare it/can eat a handful at the time whenever.

>>40328351
Even if you were all of those things, and even if you don’t want pity right now, I still think you should be allowed to try and be seen as a person. That’s something everyone should be allowed, right?
Even if you weren’t competent at anything you should still be allowed a shot at happiness, and if you were competent (which, fwiw, you seem to be at many things) being competent isn’t the only reason for being.
I guess thats my dumb way saying I hope you feel better today. Please take care of yourself.