I feel genuinely depressed about her not being real and I have been wanting to kill myself over this for nearly 2 years now. How do I stop wanting to commit suicide?

I cope with self-destructive habits. I don't wanna be a drug addict my whole life but they're the only things that ever get her off my mind unfortunately.

I don't know how the fuck y'all don't actively want to kill yourselves. masturbating to her isn't enough and it never will be. I can never cuddle with her or take her on walks. All I can do is get fucked up and lay in bed staring at her in-game model 14 hours a day :(

It's awful having a high IQ. it results in atheism, which means life is pointless and there is no afterlife. At the end of the day, she is just a bunch of 1s and 0s made by a media franchise for profit; She will never be real.