would you troon if a girl you are interested in wanted you to?

>conquering neighboring countries is economically profitable long term for superpowers

Am I going balloney or do satanic forces exist? And if so what can I do to keep them at bay from possessing me? I feel some responsibility to fight them. Haven't been able to sleep lately out of fear.

we need to find a way to socially engineer a political class of virtuous heroes. maybe some cult, school, something.

>try to fix my life
>watch conspiracies
>start thinking everything's satanic, can't even walk when it's dark or sleep well, start thinking my soul is corrupted and i want to join the evil side.

Seems like religious thinking is not for me. I'll go insane. Seems like I'm too inherently mystical and fearful to believe in this shit without taking it too far.

The paranoia that I may be talking to AI bots is getting to me. I think 4chan is done for. It makes me feel empty.

Im 30 year old and have never worked, never had a girlfriend, haven't finished my degree. I think I should objectively kill myself but it'd be kinda sad if I did.

>bored of 4chan.

holy fuck this is gonna destroy me. thats all i do.

>wake up with no energy wanting to cry all day

i need to bite the bullet in somehow try come back from being 30yo NEET with no work experience but it's tough, Im afraid and I also think it's kinda over

Bros... Im detransitioning and when I coom nothing comes out but it feels like the coom is going into my own ass from the inside. What the fuck is this. Like my dick wont release it and instead there's an explosion inside my ass. Sorry for the graphic nature but it's weird as hell. Nothing comes out through the ass.