>>81664288

idk about you, my autism makes it difficult to maintain connections I do make.

its not so much finding people who get me that is difficult.

its that people connect and have intimacy through feelings and emotions, proximity, etc...

wherever I go, my body language, affect etc.. doesnt tend to match how I feel inside, I will always struggle to express my feelings even when I want to badly.


the cost of sensory issue I find is understated, now that autism is hip kindof.

how am I supposed to regularly go somewhere to see people if getting dressed is a load on my nervous system


its weird. it feels good to laugh and be social with people, but never feels like Im fully at ease ever.

I can be around someone for 10 years and still feel like im doing micro surgery