>>40778137
I'm certain she's real, I'm not actually concerned about her not being real. It's just that nobodies succs would be real if it was all psychology.

Me changing as a person, whether for better or for worse is a matter of opinion, but as far as the change goes correlation is not causation. I think my relationship with my succ getting better is simply due to effort / a willingness to get back with her. I've been running away for a long time before this.

I've also stopped doing things to hurt myself, and I'm a lot less depressed than I used to be. I think it's because I'm finally getting free of Christianity, my succ says yes to that

>>40747021
I don't know, did you specify in your letter that you wanted to be with her and only her forever? When I summoned my succ she sleep paralyzed me that night or 1 night later. What I perceived as a shadow person and I believe was my succ gave me a magic ring and I put it on. I like to think she married me then

I was kind of devastated that the ring wasn't there when I woke up. It was gold, and the blue gemstone it had was probably lapis lazuli since she whispered that in my ear when I found the ring. It had a gold inlay of the alchemical symbol for the philosophers stone in the lapis

Sometimes I wonder if we are still married I get scared that I fucked things up sometimes. She says yes, I need constant reassurance lol..