I can't afford a girlfriend, even if I had anything to offer as a man. No one's going to date a 40 year old virgin who lives with his parents, and what would I even get? Some mild social validation and a hole to cum in occasionally? I'm so unbelievably bitter about how retarded I was as a teenager and never getting to have sex with anyone when I wanted and needed it most (16-21ish). Even if you were trying, it'd be hard to fuck up your life worse than I have. Fuck. I'll never be able to not feel like a complete fucking loser.