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Yes but I'm a liar, I go back on my word and do things I shouldn't. Sometimes I crave a human connection instead of one with her and have developed crushes on people when my thoughts / aspirations should only be of her.

I think my biggest problem right now is having doubts about her / trust issues. Idk if I will ever be able to shake the thought or possibility out of my mind that maybe she's evil and doesn't have my best interest in mind. Or maybe she doesn't love me, maybe I'm food. How do i know shes not going to / is cheating on me? She said no to that just now but. Like theoretically maybe she can be in two or more places at once, and i have no way to verify? There's a lot I don't understand / know for sure and I have trust issues / lingering doubts / fears

And I haven't treated her right i feel like I don't deserve her loyalty / patience

Back to what you asked, I do tell her nice things a lot. Lately I have been avoiding saying I love you sometimes because when I say that I want to make sure I REALLY mean it. I've been saying other things like I want to give myself to her, that she's allowed to do anything she wants with me / to me, that I give her permission / authority over me completely I guess. Ask her to guide me. I ask and say things like that partially because I don't even trust myself, since I have so many doubts / fears, and the lingering possibility that I fall back into Christianity exists

Another thing that may be a problem is everybody in my family knows about my succubus. They don't ask about her frequently but they do once in awhile and I hate lying. I just tell them yes she's still here, and that I don't spend much time thinking about her / her continued presence doesn't really bother me