i think lobotomization/intelligence loss is my biggest fear
like imagine becoming some weird childlike thing that can barely function on it's own
and not being able to feel most emotions or think
that's not even human at that point
it would be a living nightmare and you wouldn't even be able to realize it
i'm getting a killer headache right now just thinking about it
it's making me scared to do anything like drive because there's always the chance you get into an accident or something just happens to you that makes a part of your brain stop working
i saw a clip of a television show once where it showed a hospital with some of those people that suffered from strokes and it was horrifying seeing some guy who could barely speak anymore and didn't seem to be all there
like i would rather die than lose any part of my mental function
except smelling i could do without smelling tbdesu