What is self-respect and how do I get it?

I let girls string me along, I let friends dictate plans, I hate my job (despite high pay) and do nothing about it, and I moved home a year ago and a failed relationship and I'm still here.

My life is shit and I don't even trust myself to come up with a half decent plan to fix it.

I think I need therapy anons. Is it a meme? I ALWAYS prioritise others needs over my own.

I feel like a neglected child, except I'm an adult and I'm just neglecting myself. I don't ever show up for myself or prioritise my own needs. And nobody else does either. And yet I'll do it without asking - because I want to treat others how I'd like to be treated.

But it doesn't fucking work. I'm 30 and feel like time is running out.