its over I don't look like or sound like a woman. i tried voice training but someone said I sound like a rat, so that was the final nail in the coffin for me

I'm going to stay on hrt, but I'm never going to call myself trans again. I'm a dude as far as everyone else is concerned. I will never be able to be my true self, she'll be trapped in my body forever.

my therapist keeps misgendering me too, so yeah I give up. I'll just rot away in my room like an incel.

I'm not a fucking girl. Im so fucking envious of everyone here, it's just easier to accept I'll never be happy.