I sort of understand now too. Some darker things about that, that some people are just unlikable and that I am approaching relationships from too "beta" of a mindset, and that I like most of my fellowman are very internet addicted and propagandized into fear. I am sorry I wanted monogamy. I am sorry I am not a rapist killer who loudly takes over every room he is in. I am sorry I don't have so much money or muscle that I can kill whoever I want consequence free - that seems to be what I need to be though to have sex. I am sorry I am scared of dating apps, I would do well there but I don't want to do well I didn't want that I wanted commitment.
Fuck Limerance I just wanted to feel. I wanted to love I got so fucking close fuck please I need intimacy it's been so long that I think of when hands brush mine and your amazing smile. Not even been jacking off.
It sucks cause this year for me, was 5 steps forward after 25 steps back. Limerance made me feel like I just took another 3 steps back, but I'm ok. I hate crushes. I need sex. I need to destroy myself to get sex. Destroy everything holding me back in my head; if I was more forward I'd have had sex with her by now.
Ok rant and humor over.
>Limerance thread
Experiences with intense crushes, did it work out? How did you take the step beyond? Is there ways you got your emotional frame under control; without becoming a psycho repressed freak like me haha?