>>81912662
what would hating yourself do instead?
i don't know. make me strive to be better. though I'm already past that I think. i don't want to hate other people. I'd rather redirect all the hate towards myself.
>does that mean that you owe me a diamond now
in my mind, yes. i don't know why. maybe its because of how I've been raised, but i dont believe anything in this world is free. either with money, or time, or something else like gratitude, you pay for things. to me, someone gifting something and expecting absolutely nothing in return doesn't make sense. I think my view of the world has been warped so much that i just see everything as transactions. this friend has been very nice to me lately? then I need to be just as nice or more otherwise im a shit person and i feel guilty. do you not feel compelled to repay someone's kindness with the same amount when it happens to you? isn't that the same thing as having a debt to repay?
>what god did she slay
the tea god, obviously.
>what do you want?
i want to be someone's most important person. everything else seems pointless without that.