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(Cont.) Part of me does feel bad.
A lot of it was my fault. Had I had been who I am now I would have easily been railing her and my friend regularly making sex tapes while banging occasional random girls.
We would have been having 3ways non stop and not just with the anime friend, had I had taken up brewing my own alcohol sooner I could have been alternating women every weekend.
Guy after me confirmed this to be true, but his was bi and I would not have wanted those 3ways.

She was a good person. She genuinely was starting a new life. She trued to be a good girlfriend.
I dunno if we would have ever got married, but had we stayed together she would have atleast had a lot more positive opportunities in life and no strained family relationships. She even reached a point where friends who didn't know me were a no go cause her taste in people was that bad and proven to be that bad multiple times.
The control I could have had....
It just hurt her when I got too dramatic and she drew a line. I don't blame her for that in retrospect.
Only problem is I was her only social life line to people who didn't try and use her or steal from her... and my friends chose me over her cause she tried going too far.
And her worse fear became self fulfilling.
She ruined every friendship in our old town, everyone saw her as a cheap whore.
She caused her husband to kill himself.
She was the kind of person who rebelled to whatever the polar opposite of what the people she hated were.
Ans when she rebelled against me she rebelled against her former "good girlfriend" reputation.
Anyways, trauma aside she's married in a trailer. Maybe she's found peace. I can hardly see her keeping her rate of partying up.