I've been thinking recently about my ex-girlfriend who I've had an off and on again relationship amounting to five years. She's transitioned into a kind of generic female idiot -- one who's clearly recovering from an unstable teenage mental illness, and dons an affectedly dainty manner and tone in all things. I'm not sure how to characterize or explain this development in her personality; it seems to me she is in a form of psychological convalescence from when we were much younger and she attempted suicide every two weeks. Her stereotyped gentle twee baked goods mannerisms she acts out now are attempts to become her opposite, to play-act and heal herself into her psychological opposite, one who isn't suicidal or neurotic or jealous or self-harming. I may not have had the best time with her previous, and probably "truer" self, but I think there's something wrong about her latest transition. The performance of it all rubs me the wrong way, and she seems uncanny, like a body snatcher alien.