I don't actually hate BLACK people and I try to be as nice to them as humanly possible whenever I can irl unless they are ghetto pieces of shit. But I can't stop screaming things like "FUCK NIGGERS UNTIL THEY DIE FROM DEATH" or "MURDER RAPE A NIGGER BABY WITH BARB WIRE" suddenly, unexpectedly, and randomly...

It only happens whenever I am relaxed or I think of something embarassing. But I've said some things like that in public before too... Thankfully not at the top of my lungs! But I worry that it's getting worse. I fear to become employed but I'm running out of money. I really don't want to say these things, any ideas?

>inb4 kill yourself