>>510855421
I'm in the same exact position. It's my own fault for fucking around during my 20's and 30's. It's insane how fast those years went by. Hanging out with my friends all the time in the earlier years, then working my shitty job and playing vidya when I got home exhausted during the later ones. Now I'm fucking 40 and it hit me hard that I basically wasted my youth completely. For the past two months I've been in the worst depression I've ever experienced. I always dreamed of being a dad buy I seriously doubt it's ever going to happen now.