>>211917974
I signed up 2 days before and yesterday the manager girl called and asked if I still going and I said yes

>>211885680
I mean dude, she was the one
how the fuck do you let go of that

Maybe there's a very good kind kissless virgin 17 year old girl who would fall in love with me. But I am 26, and that's just would be so silly trying to make anything out of that. Because she's from different timeline, she's different in everything. I would feel absolutely isolated with her in so many aspects. And I would also never feel real love towards her, because truly my heart is only for one.. The reality there's always be just one girl I felt these mindblowing feelings.
I've lost my only chance for real love. Only roasties with twisted souls in my age category. They are all been influenced by others. I should've been the one who influences my oneitis in all the possible ways. But it just never happened.

I will never experience love. And that's just a fact. And I don't think you can really cope with that. You can only numb yourself with meds in such situation, and try to cope with success, sex, achievements, status, ego boosts, etc.

Behind every flag.... is a jeet