>>40756037
I think you've listened to your 'mommy' long enough, now it's time to listen to daddy. Come sit next to me, I'm going to tell you what you're doing. You see, you're scared and alone, just like children are when they go to school. And what do children do? They want to be accepted, but they are not educated, so they imagine a friend that likes them perfectly and is always there for them. These children that mature usually come to make real friends and their imaginary friend goes away. You were told Santa isn't real, this is just another hurdle for you. Then, after high school, that period of social interaction, even if forced, comes to an end. Sure, there may be college, but kid you don't seem like the type. So you languish in isolation and soon enough that childish thinking emerges again. But this time you have been exposed to 'religion' and 'mythology', so you create a new imaginary friend. Even most people who think this are still members of society, but you, you completely surrender your mental fantasies when your true love was out there, waiting for you, but never arrived. I pity her, but not you.
>>40756741
Ah yes, the more suicidal one, the one who keeps denying their urge to just...end it all. How's your death cult going for you? Have you fulfilled your purpose here yet? No? That must suck. It's like when your mom forgets to pick you up from school at the end of the day. You must be so terrified because there are a bunch of mean-looking men yelling at other kids, and you think "I just need to go...I just need to go...Lilly is going to come for me." The other child is in full denial, but you have trailblazed a path to nowhere. How much self-hatred must one have to deny their own reality? It's not healthy for you to be this abusive. That's what "Lilly" is. It's just your abusive personality taking over and self-falleging you, which is why you relish in the chance of abusing others. To make the pain of being worthless go away a bit longer.