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>while I'm still depressed about it not working out with her, I am genuinely trying to get over her
>god, sensing this, reaches his hand down to specifically troll me
>one of our only plans is a guided diving tour
>the diving instructor is a hot Russian guy, and he's instantly and AGGRESSIVELY flirting with the girl
I'm talking straight up cornball shit, like we asked him to take a picture of our group with a disposable camera and he said, I shit you not, "It's funny, when I look through this, i only see you ;)"
>I'm already gritting my fucking teeth when he tries to invite himself to show us around town (read: get closer to the girl) when we're done
>at this point, I've obviously realized I'm not over her
>but I'm still suppressing it
>i don't remember what i said, but my seething aura was so intense that in the time it took for us to get in the car he had un-invited himself
>god flips a cosmic bit, and what was honestly a massive display of insecurity by me results in her and I having a genuinely good conversation where we're opening up to each other for the first time in months
>but I'm still suppressing it
>that night, we're drinking, talking, dancing, and playing card games
>she's flirting with me again
>we've both been drinking when she takes off her panties and tosses them at me across the table
>just joke, laugh it off, and put them in my pocket because I don't know what to do with them
>but I'm still suppressing it
>she beckons me over as she's getting ready for bed
>she's still trying to flirt with me within sight of our two friends
>very deliberately pull up her bra (it was loose) and tell her I'm not going to do this when she's drunk, and all I want is to get together when we're sober
She gets cold feet again, I get canceled even though multiple witnesses watched me deliberately NOT take advantage of her when we had both been drinking, and I stop asking women out. This was the 4th time I've been rejected this badly too.