hungry

would a tranny be friends with a normie masculine dude who just so happens to take estrogen?

I have been dating my boyfriend for the past two months. There isn't really anything I could complain about him; he's handsome, has a nice personality, shares my interests and is in general a very honest and relatable person. However, I've been having this nagging feeling about him having friends and a n active social life. I grew up lonely and haven't been able to make real friends for a long while, and it pains me to see him have fun with his friends every once in a while. I wish he was a lonely loser like I am. I even get the urge to leave him sometimes. I know it's a horrible idea, I should be happy for his success. Am I retarded? If yes, how fucked am I?