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It's because of the way you view reality. If you take a camera and put a black and white lens on it, every photo you take with that camera will look depressing and sad, but that's not how the world actually is, that's just the lens distorting reality. I'm very confident that this is also happening in your life, and that this is one of the main reasons why it's so "hard" to quit... That's the thing, it isn't. Whenever you *believe* that quitting is hard, that it's God punishing you, that the suffering is too much blah blah blah, you reinforce that thing. It's literally all in your head, I know it's a platitude, but it's the truth. The moment that you start believing that life isn't a constant battle against yourself, and that you can change for the better with only a little bit of effort, that's when you see the results. I've seen crackheads who couldn't imagine a day of their lives without the rock, suddenly quit overnight and never do it again, and why is that? Because they changed their own beliefs, their own thoughts, and by doing so, they changed reality. Listen up man, you have a fucking girlfriend, you're not a "truecel" made to suffer and generate loosh, you're just yet another regular fag on this world, and that "fetish" of yours doesn't define you as a person. Hit the gym, read a good book, do a nice hobby, and most importantly, stop being a faggot. Whenever you feel down, always remember the anons of this Mongolian ice fishing forum that have been trying to help you ever since your first thread.