Op, I’ll say a few last things:
I do feel, personally, admittedly, anecdotally, there is great validity to meditation, but that’s as much as I can really give you. Do you need to do it? I think, if done with the right intention and the right execution, it COULD be beneficial to you. Everybody is not a monolith; for everyone the prescription is different.
Having gotten past if it’s the right thing for you to do, which is to say justify for yourself why you would want to do this thing, I can say only from personal experience and the first hand accounts there is something to this meditation, although what is often indescribable.
There is, yes, and there is also nothing to it as well. People have sat on cushions for years searching for a thing only to realize, “I haven’t gotten or gone anywhere.”
…well no shit? You don’t say.

I have found personally that those times in life where I’ve been diligent with meditation have been both fruitful and pointless simultaneously. I did it because it felt right, even when (like when I was just starting out) I was doing it for some…gain, some next level je ne sais quoi, it felt right first. So I did it.
In those moments I have felt more aligned within myself: more aware of my senses (and able to pick them out individually more readily), more in control of my emotions, and more considerate of the actions I took.
Indeed I feel too there is great validity lying within prayer, contemplation, and meditation all. Start always with prayer is my advocacy, and if you are looking towards meditation as an integral part of getting down to the basement level of yourSelf / the GodHead / your conversation with your maker, Buddhists have some of the most detailed and finely tuned ideas on the matter.

Meditate and destroy, brother.