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self-replying but having this recent disappointment on my mind while visiting my family for 4th of july only reinforced my primal lust for a gf/wife it hit me really hard when i was helping my mom with dinner (no im not into momcest) but the idea of cooking dinner with a girl who is yours and you are hers just hit me like a fucking truck i had to put in effort to not show sadness on my face while helping my mom make dinner just thinking of how happy i would be if i had a significnat other to spend my days with

sometimes after a week of hard work its really nice to come home to quiet apartment, other times the silence is deafening to the point i end up breaking open a bottle of suntori to try to ignore it, i dont consider myself an alcoholic i only drink 2 or 3 times a month but when i drink i usually drink an entire bottle of whiskey in 1 night (and tonight is one of those)

i dont need some 10/10 perfect wife who has no flaws i just want another human being (female) that can share my joy in good times and sadness in bad times. it would be so nice to come home to have someone i care for and cares for me being there, rather than just every single friday come home to a dark, silent apartment

fuck normies who take female companionship for granted i legitamitely cannot understand that mindset of having someone who lives with you, being there for you and you just bitch about them while at work (majority of my coworkers just bitching about their wives like having a companion is some sort of detriment to their existence)