>>49531140
Yes, I wrote fictional stories and roleplayed from 3rd person limited or 1st person pov of female characters. Been doing it since I was 13 all the way until I trooned and lost sex drive and thus interest in it. Visual pornography had no meaning for me, but nothing could make me so horny as writing fiction of this sort.
My fantasies were of all the extreme kinds: rape, degradation, guro, loli rape, etc. eventually I became a person without limits capable of doing just about anything.

Is it hard to fathom? That a person can have non visual sexual attraction? But that's just normal; that's how all fetishes work. Writing about the pain, the terror, the suffering of these women whom I roleplayed made me masturbate for hours non stop, write and mastrubate, cum over and over again and keep doing even when my penis was soft and my balls hurt.

Even now...even though I lost sex drive due to hrt, I experienced something like sexual arousal while reading about soviet war crimes on wikipedia. As I started imagining the pain, humiliation and despair of the victims, I started feeling what I haven't felt in years.
Whether I suppressed it or decided to pursue that path again, I shall leave to your imagination.