My job claims to care about extremely disadvantaged people but it continues to bring more in while being understaffed and not having any medical or educational training. Every day I am reminded of this moral line that keeps being crossed, and I'm not even paid decently for the work or treated like a person who tries to do right by others. I'm constantly berated for asking clarifying questions when given orders, or taking initiative when there's ambiguity. I'm threatened by both my administrator and the CEO herself on a regular basis, and said CEO openly threatens to fire and replace almost all the employees over radio on a regular basis as well. They're taking money from my paycheck each week over an extremely minor bumper-scratching accident months ago, which I'm told is illegal, and they don't even plan on repairing the bumper, which I know because they did this with the guy before me and several other drivers. I can't reasonably quit because this is the only job I could get in several months. I can't move out until around Mare Fair because I don't have the money to rent anywhere. I can move in with a friend in September but that's months down the line.

I want to hurt my boss, dearly, when I leave this place. I want to leave her not only without me but without several employees, without notice, so she can know what it's like to be overburdened and overworked for shit pay. I have nothing positive to say about the last several months except that they're in the past and one of these days I'll be gone. From work, from this state, from my family, from everyone in my life. And ideally away from here. If I didn't plan for half a year to go to MF at least once, I would have cancelled my booking weeks ago. I'm increasingly dreading sharing a space with you people and I don't even feel like there's anything I could get out of going. But I've already booked it and going back on it would just make me a quitter again.