It's genuinely fucking over for me. When I was younger, I was raped by a family member who was someone I thought was doing good for me. Years later, Ive come to terms that it has affected my sexual well being and preferences in the dating market. I have a strong attraction to men which Ive hid for years, however with the introduction of BP going mainstream and many teens in our generation looking up to models, I felt I can let loose and leave a little trail behind. This however has made many people close to me start cutting me off for being "gay" or "bisexual" which was honestly expected ( I just didn't think it would be this bad). *check images for context* Im not confused with my sexuality, I just can't come to terms with it. Im a fairly good looking guy as Ive pulled many chicks that other men would never have the chance to be able to pull. I just don't see anything with them, so I play with their feelings to fuel my torn mind. With everything going on in my life, I just can't hang on to it all, and I might kill myself.