>>713829256
>bout to be 31
>lived a crazy life
>done multiple jobs and is becoming high up in current job
>had sex with girl I was after's best friend's mom
>have 2 dogs to take care of
>still feel the same suicidal as I was my whole life

I have no fucking idea. Switch 2 has been helping pre occupy my mind. But the thought that I do not have a purpose kills me. I want to be a (biological) father as a purpose or something important, but no matter what I do I always end up the same spot as always.