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>and was wondering if it is normal to miss on Rodion wanting to be "special", or feel like she's not like the other poor people?
Yeah one of my biggest gripes with her Canto is that it really didn't do a good job of setting up the idea that Rodion wanted to be special
All you have to go on it in that Canto are the words of the tax collector who is actively antagonistic to Rodion and looks down on her, so she could just be saying things to hurt her
And then you also have the word of Sonya who has actively manipulated Rodion in the past, tried to manipulate her again to join his side in the present, and will honestly probably try and manipulate her again in the future, while also using Rodya's alleged want of being special as a way to deflect her question about how he knew Rodion was going to lose her temper upon confronting the tax collector and end up acting rashly

To me, it's all painting a picture of Rodion only half-heartedly believes that she wants to be special as that's what people kept saying that's what she wanted, especially because she struggles to admit as much herself
As to why this is being done I couldn't say, but Sonya is clearly planning something involving Rodya