>>81753618
>But I can't fill it with faith like they can, the hole remains no matter how much I try to fill it with prayer or books.
yeah, i get that. i've tried everything but nothing seems to be the solution. everything i try ultimately becomes obsolete and i go back at feeling like dying. i really just wish i could be okay and not feel empty or miserable all the time. maybe the future will have something worth living for. just gotta be there to see it i guess.