>>33295888
i was recommended pic related in addition to zinc

>>33295889
I'm trying. I can barely talk to my own psychologist about sex. I get nervious and shakey and cant even get the words out.
But if I talk to a girl who has the same kinks as me on day 1, it's much easier to me because I know there wont be any awkwardness.

>>33295895
When I was a teen I thought sex was going to be the coolest thing. I went to prom with a girl who rejected me after the prom ended. I went through high school having only one gf that we dated for 3 months. As i got older sex never happened, i was nervous around women, i went through 4 years of college in a major university and didnt kiss a girl once.
These days I'd rather provide to a woman through my knowledge and skills and protection instead of sexual activity, which I see as unneccary
I think shame is a big part of it. My parents were not sexual or openly romantic with each other. The only reason I know they had sex is because me and my siblings exist. I saw my dad provide for us and my mom through his job and taking us on roadtrips, birthdays, going to the park etc.
The girl im with now loves me very much, but the more affectionate and sexual she gets with me the more I feel like escaping and getting away from it
I like being alone and am avoidant most of the time, so my gut feeling when something doesnt feel right is to get away from it.