guess i'll start.
i'll probs just bathtub it up next morning, which is always a problem for me, since it's really hard to kys in the morning. but otherwise it won't work.
all my teen years i had digestive and hormonal out of nowhere, which fucked up my face with acne, destroyed my heart rate, circulation, brain function etc. it's so unfair since my HS friends who smoked cigarettes, weed, vapes, drank alchohol, partied, ate junk food and drank soda DAILY are perfectly healthy right now, meanwhile i never did anyone of things (i dont even eat junk food and i drink soda maybe once every 2 weeks max) and im so fucked health wise. it's so unfair just looking life pass by, seeing all my friends haivng fun meanwhile i passed up all the opprotunities to smoke weed and drink and became sick nonetheless. it's unfair. it fucking hurts so much. the sense of betrayal of fate. i thought i was special. that's what i was told when i was a kid. im functionally retarded these days because of that, because my parents never fucking took me to a doctor, and even when they finally did, he couldn't even figure out what was wrrong. never ending acne, acne scars,and all matter of health problems that rise due to improper blood circulation. isolation, didnt learn to drive a car. i know that i will never be able to achieve my dreams. i will never ahcieven anything i ever wanted. even small things