I bought gym rings few days ago. Visited the climbing gym a few times but i don't think that shit is for me, i mean it's fun but i don't think it's something i can do for long and it's not really that fun to focus on it instead of anything else.

I also went to a music festival (it was like 50/50 experimental music like noise and heavier dance sets with EBM/dark synth/techno, the vibe was so dark it's like the nightclubs from VTMB) and brought a guy i know there. I shared my experiences about going to the rave alone and he got all fired up, turns out he wanted to go to one of these kinds of events as well but he can't do it alone. He was shy and kinda depressed and said he doesn't feel like he belongs there, he feels like everyone knows each other and he's a bit too old for the age group. I did the pep talk saying how stuff in his head and the objective reality have NOTHING in common. He ended up talking to some alt girl and exchanging contact info, so i'm proud of this guy. We danced like madmen, my legs still hurt from all the jumping i did.

I talked to a 6'3 girl there, said she was beautiful, and asked her for a selfie. She looked at the phone screen before i took a photo and said "haha i AM beautiful!". I dunno what it meant but i felt really good because my compliment hit just right. I asked her about her outfit and she proudly said that she frequents this kinds of events and dances industrial and techno and stuff, i said "haha, nice, well thank you imma just head out the next set is about to start". She was really sweet behind her intimidating appearance and open to talk but here's the thing, somehow i can't talk to most people on a deeper than surface level. Maybe dancing and shit helps me rebuild my self-esteem but i still stop myself and shut down even if the conversation gets going. I dunno if that's self-loathing or something, i don't fear approaching people because if something goes wrong i can leave any time i want to, i fear the moment they stay.