I've been quite unstable since this morning, i know I'll probably get better tomorrow, but i just don't feel like i am
So much is going through my head
What do i do? I want to bawl, i want to hurt others, i want to break stuff, i want justice, i want to die. What do? I'm miserable, maybe it's fine to go on meds? I hate this
Maybe it started since a few days ago actually
Whatever
I don't think I've had it this rough before... nothing seems to help. I've been on edge since like the mid of last week.
Wtf do i have? Why am i like this? I should probably go to a professional. But i don't know how to open myself up. Fuck. Whatever.
And despite all this, and despite how i feel, i still love her so much... i'm sure that in my death i would be thinking of her... but would she think of us? I don't know... i don't want to think anymore...
Why am i posting this...?