>>81515683
>but i wish to do what's right for my family
Like I said, you want to please others, instead of pleasing yourself. Straight people don't have to choose, they get the best of both words. Not us, though. We have to decide if we want our happiness, or the happiness of others at our expense.
>Genetics
Bullshit. You are not a king, your legacy is irrelevant. You can still have children as a gay man.
Just stop pretending that a wife is what you want. No it isn't. Your wants are torn between the men you love, or pleasing your family