>>40138266
My first memory was like this basically. I hated having my hair cut as a kid, which is sort of normal. When the dysphoria hit for the first time though was when I had managed to get it fairly long and pretending to be sick weeks in a row to keep my military dad from forcing it to get cut at the base barbershop. I remember just feeling a deep sadness I couldn't explain, I was crying the whole drive there and I cried in the chair. My dad finally was about to scold me and tell me to shut up about it, and when he leaned down and looked me in the eyes he knew how it was hurting me, but he still didn't understand. I got a buzz cut like normal and I wasn't allowed to grow it out at all for a number of years.