How do I know if it's really GD or I'm just sick of being fucking ugly and unlovable. Sometimes I think I'd be okay with being a cute guy. Sometimes I think nothing less than being a cute girl will suffice. I guess that's why i spend so much time lost in my fantasies. I can be whatever I want to be at the time. If I ever got a gf I'd probably ruin it because 2 days of every 10 I'd suddenly want to be a cute gay guy. Maybe I just have no sense of identity because I've repressed my emotions for like 2 decades.